I was just going to go with the obvious: I was in a room with a man with AIDS.
It was a very, very crowded room.
We had a lot of people around.
There were two girls, one was white, the other was black.
They had the same hair colour, I remember, and they had the exact same clothes.
The only thing I remember about them was they had a huge smile on their face.
I asked them what they were doing and they said, “I’m having a shower.”
And I was like, “You’ve got a problem with that?”
And they were like, ‘Oh, no, we have a problem’.
The one girl I was with, she had a little boy, so she was kind of scared.
I said, ‘That’s fine.
We’ve got all the resources we need.’
And I remember she looked at me like I was crazy.
But I knew they had to be OK, and I had a feeling they were OK.
I had my own problems.
I was living in a big city and it was raining all day, so I was very stressed.
So, I just went into the bathroom and got on my toilet, just to wash off the sweat and the tears.
I didn’t want to have to deal with it any more, so when I finished, I went to the bathroom.
I sat down on the toilet and I just washed myself.
It wasn’t anything I wanted to do.
It’s not like I felt shame, it was just, I thought, ‘I’ve got to go and wash my hands’.
So I did, and then I washed my hands and put my towel on and dried them.
And when I went out, I didn.
I don’t know if I washed the whole room, or if I only washed my hand a little bit, but it was really dirty.
I went back into the room, and it wasn’t that bad.
I felt really good.
And I went outside, and people were asking, ‘What happened?’
It was like the people were wondering.
They were saying, ‘Where’s the boy?’
And I said to them, ‘Well, you know, he’s just gone home and we don’t have any time.’
But, I don’ think it was that bad for them.
It just made me realise that I have a lot to deal.
I know how hard it is to find a mate, and if I was feeling very anxious, or really lonely, I could have gone to the toilet.
I wouldn’t have had to go through that again.
It would have just made it easier.
I thought that I would have to be alone for a while to find the right person.
And the girl I dated that day was like that too.
I’d had the boy, and now I was dating a guy who was not the boy.
The fact that I had been in the same room with him, it just made my life so much easier.
But it wasn’ t all so easy.
I remember walking home from work one day and I was standing outside a little building with this guy who said, I want to buy you a house.
I wanted a house because I’d heard about it in the newspaper, and the owner was saying he was in favour of the idea.
And he said, You know what, I’ve heard about you, too.
He had a beautiful smile on his face.
And as I walked away, I had this kind of feeling that this is what I wanted for my life.
I mean, I’d gone and bought a house, but I’d never really lived in a house before.
So it was like an opportunity.
And it was so beautiful.
He bought me this house, and he’s not even here yet.
I just feel so lucky.
The other day, I saw a guy on Facebook and he said that he was going to buy me a house in Singapore.
And, I was thinking, ‘Who would want to live in Singapore?
I mean that’s like $10 million a year for a single family.’
And, so, I felt like I got lucky, I got a house and I’m getting married.
I’m just so happy.
I feel so blessed.
But, at the same time, it also made me feel like I had to do something about my life, because I had so much to deal and I didn’ t know how to deal or how to take care of myself.
I think I was the last person in the room who was OK, because we were all really stressed.
I couldn’ t think straight, I couldn’t concentrate.
I would just sit there and just cry, because my mind was just spinning.
I wasn’t sure if I could get through it.
I got through it in a few days, and a few weeks later, I started getting really good at getting through it, and getting through my life again. The way I